Friday, October 25, 2002

OK, imagine you’re a Chinese emperor’s general and you just encountered a whole gang of mountain rogues. Their chief is so beautiful you think it’s a woman and you have this strange ‘bride’ conversation before the chief actually strips naked to show you there’s no way HE could be your bride. What would you say?
‘Cause the general says, and I quote: I don't care that you're a man !
*closes her suddenly slack mouth with an audible click*
Now, if THAT’s not courage, than I don’t know what is.

Wednesday, October 23, 2002

Just read the 14th volume of „X”. Loved the Kamui/Subaru scenes. Hey guys, why don’tcha forget those Fûma/Sakurazukamori freaks and comfort one another instead, eh? You’d make SUCH a beautiful couple!
Nah, don’t think they’ll listen.
People... Always after something they cannot have.

Are you a Seme or Uke?

Sunday, October 20, 2002

The white-sleeve-upon-my-mouth-trick seems to work just fine (as long as I remember about it ^^;;).
Under the trees it doesn’t rain when it rains but it starts raining when it stops raining.

OK, let’s try this „Viggo’s stream of consciousness” *g*

[current clothes] Bottle-green T-shirt, grey sweat pants
[current mood] Confused
[current music] Weiss Kreuz opening
[current taste] Cheesecake *g*
[current make-up] Don’t wear make-up at home... save some remnants of tinted moisturiser I use when I go for a walk with Amber
[current hair] Brown & curly, just washed; smells of avocado, I guess
[current annoyance] No constant internet access here!
[current smell] Citrus-flavoured body-souffle, chocolate
[current thing I ought to be doing] Broadening my horizons, preparing the troops for tomorrow’s first battle, washing the dishes
[current desktop picture] Fujiwarano Sai from „Hikaru no Go” playing a flute („sweet strawberry” with Trowa/Quatre just got too sweet)
[current favorite movie] „Lord of the Rings: FotR”, followed closely by „Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon”
[current favorite tv show] None since they stopped playing „Gundam Wing” after 26 epizodes (argh!)
[current favorite actor] Kenneth Branagh (just saw him in „Love’s Labours Lost”)
[current book] David Leavitt „The Lost Language of Cranes”, „Hikaru no Go” (OK, so it’s not strictly ‘a book’ *shrugs*), Sogjal Rinpoche „The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying”, Dorota Terakowska „Where the Angels Fall”, Anselm Grün „50 Engel für die Seele”
[current cd in cd players] Anouk/Noa/shanties/good-ol’-English-ballads and so on
[current refreshment] Oolong
[current toenail color] It’s liquid silk wrap – doesn’t really have a colour
[current worry] My family’s frustrated with me being a failure – takes it outta me
[current obsession] „Hikaru no Go”, Go, drabbles, „Gundam Wing”, „Yami no Matsuei”, finding a job that’s at least a bit satisfactory and reasonably paid.

Saturday, October 05, 2002

Grateful that I’m alive – and I have keen senses
I never keep promises made to myself – just because I thought there’s no one else listening to me?
„Ordinary Day” Vanessa Carlton + „Down Boy” Holly Valance + „Adrienne” The Calling + „Everyday” Bon Jovi + Shôjo Kakumei Utena TV opening + Samurai Deeper Kyo opening + Yami no Matsuei opening + + ... *shrugs*

No, it’s not New Year’s eve or anything. Guess the time is right or I just felt an unusual flow of energy or... whatever. The promise I keep repeating to myself but failing every time I check, is – I’ll do everything to justify my existence, to be as useful as I can, to reach my limits as a person (physically, mentally, spiritually), to fulfil the „plan”. I wanna die thinking that I did my best, that I lived life to the fullest and never made anyone cry.
And next time I start brooding, somebody kick me.

Tuesday, October 01, 2002

Just read Cinzia’s „Bliss” at zasjah’s Arandur Mine. I cried like a baby... Which I still feel like when it comes to the matters of the heart. This is just SO not fair! „Cope”, they say. Well, *cope* my ass! I can as well go and tell Amber that he shouldn’t act like a spoiled brat just because he „turned” one today, for in a couple of years’ time he’ll be older than me *sigh*